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May. 25th, 2007 02:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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I miss Ynez so fucking much. I just miss her, miss being with her. I miss talking to her, I miss listening to her voice. I miss watching her asleep and her yelling at me and I miss seeing her name flash on my cell phone. I miss the smell of her shampoo and the fucking flights to New York, the ones I always used to whine about when no-one was listening ‘cause deep down, I knew they were worth it and I miss learning about her and resting my hand on her waist and I miss, shit, I just miss everything. And I can’t believe I fucked it up so much, I can’t fucking believe some of the stuff that came out of my mouth. What the hell was I thinking?! I can’t speak to someone like that and expect them to stick around. I’m fucking. I’m turning into my father, that’s what. I can’t do this thing. I can’t not speak to her, this is driving me crazy. I gotta do something, I gotta, I dunno. Beg Kowalski to tell me where she is. Ring again. Fuck, anything I do is gonna look bad. I miss her so much.
Saw Stella at work today. I miss her too. I miss Ynez more. Fucking crazy.
ooc: Since Ray's been so screwed up lately, he's going to be venting like this until it's out of his system. Some things won't make sense, some things will be pretty obvious, but like always, take most of what he says with a pinch of salt! So if anybody's muse for any reason feels insulted by what they read or whatever, don't be! 'Cause 99% of the time he's not thinking about what he's saying so he doesn't mean it! I'm just trying to get him a little clearer, so I can go back through these posts one day and figure him out, the changes in him etc. Obviously, these are not for muse knowledge, hence the ickle locked sign. *sigh* I wish he'd un-break himself. Oh, And I'm bracing myself for bi-polar activity. *braces*
I miss Ynez so fucking much. I just miss her, miss being with her. I miss talking to her, I miss listening to her voice. I miss watching her asleep and her yelling at me and I miss seeing her name flash on my cell phone. I miss the smell of her shampoo and the fucking flights to New York, the ones I always used to whine about when no-one was listening ‘cause deep down, I knew they were worth it and I miss learning about her and resting my hand on her waist and I miss, shit, I just miss everything. And I can’t believe I fucked it up so much, I can’t fucking believe some of the stuff that came out of my mouth. What the hell was I thinking?! I can’t speak to someone like that and expect them to stick around. I’m fucking. I’m turning into my father, that’s what. I can’t do this thing. I can’t not speak to her, this is driving me crazy. I gotta do something, I gotta, I dunno. Beg Kowalski to tell me where she is. Ring again. Fuck, anything I do is gonna look bad. I miss her so much.
Saw Stella at work today. I miss her too. I miss Ynez more. Fucking crazy.
ooc: Since Ray's been so screwed up lately, he's going to be venting like this until it's out of his system. Some things won't make sense, some things will be pretty obvious, but like always, take most of what he says with a pinch of salt! So if anybody's muse for any reason feels insulted by what they read or whatever, don't be! 'Cause 99% of the time he's not thinking about what he's saying so he doesn't mean it! I'm just trying to get him a little clearer, so I can go back through these posts one day and figure him out, the changes in him etc. Obviously, these are not for muse knowledge, hence the ickle locked sign. *sigh* I wish he'd un-break himself. Oh, And I'm bracing myself for bi-polar activity. *braces*
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Date: 2007-05-25 07:32 pm (UTC)Okay...ones that make me choke (all ex-PMs):
Lester
Lawrence
Pierre
Ones that I'm considering:
Elizabeth/Lizzy after the Queen! XD
Bennett (heh, Benny for short) after a Canadian PM
Eisenhower 'cause of the whole American/Canadian divide and he was the PM (and very good friends with Deifenbaker) when Dief was PM
Have also considered "Elizabeth Bennett" because omg, how sad. You got the Queen, Benny AND stubborn, independent girl from Pride and Prejudice in there!]
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Date: 2007-05-25 09:25 pm (UTC)Also? Ray getting a puppy is interesting, considering who Evan's gonna turn up with....)Re: ooc
Date: 2007-05-25 09:35 pm (UTC)Guarddog!puppyDief!!! You just try Evan!! You'll get bitten by teeth that are still coming through!!
Please spill more! This is killing me!!! Have mercy!!]Re: ooc
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Date: 2007-05-25 09:58 pm (UTC)Just emailing you... Not spilling, but you do at least get more vague hints....Re: ooc
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