Stream of Consciousness a la Ray [locked]

There were two kids, about sixteen, seventeen, fooling around in the park today. Not very discreet. Or hygienic. I could practically feel the hormones rolling off 'em in waves. I covered my eyes and went in there badge first, the guy had his pants around his ankles for Christ's sake, I shoulda booked them both. But I didn't, I gave them a warning, a one minute - and very awkward - sex ed/indecent behavior lecture and let them go. I understood. I actually got how they were feeling. Ren makes me feel like a teenager again and God, I just wanna, every second I just want to be with him. It's corny, deep down it's really sickly sweet, I can't argue that. But that's the only possible reason I can think of for why I spend so much time thinkin' about him. This is what it was like when I was a kid, when I was pining after Ange and she wouldn't give me the time of day. I used to think about her all the time, imagine us together and we ended up married. After that it turned into something different but I loved her with all my heart. I was in love with Stella as well but it was never like this. Ynez was never going to work. Ren is working, somehow, but this pining for him thing is supposed to have worn out by now. I'm 39 and we've been together over seven months and I still can't stop.......I was gonna say wanting him but that sounds........I still can't stop wanting him, all the time. I get no peace. All I can think is that I gotta stop trying. My head says I want him, my body says I want him and my heart, says....it's love. I think maybe crazy hormones is a small price to pay for what I got.


[ooc: Yuck, yuck, eugh, *shudder* I blame Turnbull for doing this to him! *blames* I tried to stop him but he wouldn't let me go to bed before I'd typed out what was in his head. And it's not even Valentine's Day yet. >.<]