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May. 23rd, 2007 08:13 pm[locked]
Been finding it hard to sleep and so I’ve just been…thinking. Mostly about mistakes I’ve made and how to put them right. Ever since I found out Stella’s back in town I’ve been kinda, I don’t know. Not myself. It started before that, quite a while before that but talking to her, or yelling since that seems to be our preferred way to communicate, made me aware of it, I guess. Maybe this is something all guys go through when they uh, hit a certain age but I don’t see Fraser and Kowalski having mano a manos with themselves so I’m gonna say it’s something else.
This is easier to write than I thought it would be. I know Frannie’s kept a diary nearly all her life but I’ve never gone into the whole ‘talk about your feelings’ thing. It’s a little scary that right now, I don’t seem to have a big problem with it. I’m a man, I can’t take anything you gotta say to me, Ray Vecchio. And now I’m talking to myself too. This has gotta stop. Just, write it all down and then you’ll see and you won’t have to think about it all the time and just, it’ll be easier.
I feel
This is stupid. I have work to do.
Been finding it hard to sleep and so I’ve just been…thinking. Mostly about mistakes I’ve made and how to put them right. Ever since I found out Stella’s back in town I’ve been kinda, I don’t know. Not myself. It started before that, quite a while before that but talking to her, or yelling since that seems to be our preferred way to communicate, made me aware of it, I guess. Maybe this is something all guys go through when they uh, hit a certain age but I don’t see Fraser and Kowalski having mano a manos with themselves so I’m gonna say it’s something else.
This is easier to write than I thought it would be. I know Frannie’s kept a diary nearly all her life but I’ve never gone into the whole ‘talk about your feelings’ thing. It’s a little scary that right now, I don’t seem to have a big problem with it. I’m a man, I can’t take anything you gotta say to me, Ray Vecchio. And now I’m talking to myself too. This has gotta stop. Just, write it all down and then you’ll see and you won’t have to think about it all the time and just, it’ll be easier.
I feel
This is stupid. I have work to do.
